Muse

I'm never gonna visit you again.
You're almost out of my head.
It feels really great to not have your name
Tattooed on my brain,
So I'm never gonna visit you again.
I'm never gonna visit you again.
Your spell is finally wearing off my thread.
I've better ways of time to spend
I could dance around
or sing aloud and proud,
And I'm never gonna visit you again.

Coffee

I've been drinking coffee a lot now. Before college I hated it. When I was a kid I used to think when I'd drink coffee in the morning it would mean I was officially an adult because my mom and dad drank coffee in the morning. I guess I was sorta right.

Crush

I really want to let you in
I also want to cut my skin
You told me I should speak my mind
but I feel like a waste of time
And I can't even talk to you
I'll look away, stunned, like a fool
Your eyes are like the tide and they pull me in
I'm scared that I may drown in them
not in the way they squeal at in love stories
but in a way I'm familiar with that's much more frightening.

Why?

My fingers are still numb from the cold but I had to type this out because it's literally killing me. Why am I always the one who has to take care of people? I don't get it. I mean I know this girl and she's coo. but she drinks a lot and she hit her head over the weekend and now she's on seizure medicine because she had maybe 4 seizures or something she said and of course me being me I had to step in and help her and meet her dumb friends who look like no good anyway. I just wish I could stop caring so much about people who don't care half as much about me.

Tripping On Xanax (Infatuation)

I washed my xanax down with beer

It was my fault, trying to feel

My mind is starting to reel

As my eyes peel back...

I see you

I'm high and I see you

You bat your eyes at me

And i can't fucking breathe

Am I tripping deep?

Because you're all I see

Tripping on xanax

And I can't breathe

Tripping on xanax

You're all I see

The Lobby Of Hobbies

We're going to hobby lobby today! That means I'll get to buy new beads for bracelets and stuff! We're also going to the goodwill, walmart, the mall, and.... that's it. It should be a lot of fun :3

Numb

I really need to work on my bitch face, lol.

I feel a bit numb. I feel like when I'm here, my emotions are put in a safe and I can only access them when I'm alone or at home. It's weird.