Not Liking Myself

Lately I haven't really liked myself. Do I ever like myself anymore? I feel like I do everything wrong, no matter how hard I try. I can't score well on the ACT, I'm going to be a senior in a sophomore math class next semester. My whole High School experience has been so fucked up, I hate even talking about it. I wish I could wake up a mathematician, like, the best in the world. Then I'd be awesome at math and people would have to ask me for help. And then I could get a perfect on the ACT's math score and that would probably boost my overall score to a 21 or higher. I just.. I'm so terrible at academic things and I hate it. I hate being like this.