Nova

Nova, who are you? Where are you? Where is your head? I don't know who you are anymore. You get high every night and you're dating a guy and a girl at the same time. You slept with a friend of a friend of yours, and why? I just... I don't even know what to say. I can barely even put my emotions into words right now. I don't know who you are anymore, and I'm not sure I want to. I love you so much, Nova. I love you more than I should, and that's why you keep doing it. You know when you have people under your thumb and you use it to your advantage; to get away with things. I can't handle being under your thumb anymore. I don't know what to do. I don't know whether I should drop you or let you fade away or what but it can't stay like this. This is the most unhealthy relationship I've ever had in my life with anybody, ever. I'm almost ashamed to say you're one of my best friends, and I hate myself because it's true.