I'm nervous I guess. I mean I literally have a cyst on my ass. If that isn't the weirdest thing ever I don't know what is. Not to mention it totally makes me unfuckable, as laying on my back hurts like a bitch and I have a giant obnoxious unattractive bandaid right on top of the cyst, which is in a really obvious place..... between..... my.... BUTCHEEKS. HFKSDFKJHDASJKFKJDFKJSDAFJKSDHF.
I'm so pissed about it. Idk. It's not like I planned on having a sex fest over the summer but ugh like I even have to masturbate differently. It just really sucks. Plus I may have to get surgery over the summer to get rid of the sinus that the pilodinial cyst is growing from, and depending on how deep it is, the wound may take months to heal. There goes my whole summer. Not to mention, I'm not going to be able to go swimming at all. It's just a bummer. The more I think about the cyst the more it depresses me. Especially because I don't know if or when it'll ever go away, or if it'll come back, and how many times it'll come back. I don't know. It's also just really irritating that my skin is always deciding to do whatever the fuck it wants. Seriously like I'm always getting infections and scratching holes into my skin because of eczema and honestly I just wish I didn't have to go through all this bullshit. It's a different skin thing every half a year so it seems.
The worst thing is going to be pretending like I'm normal around other people. Trying not to wince when I accidentally lay on my back. Cringing when I sit on a chair and when getting up. It just really sucks.
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