Sometimes I wonder if you have emotions. You're so cold and you don't even know it, I don't understand how you can be so full of yourself that you can't even see what you're doing. You seem to be so oblivious to the outside world. Can't you see anything besides your own reflection? I genuinely wonder if you'll ever change. Not for me but for future friendships/ partners. Maybe I'm in the wrong for not taking you as you are, but this just seems too much.

Confession

I hold on to people who treat me like shit, and I don't know why. I grow attached to people quick as lightning. I'm clingy to the wrong people, or people that I shouldn't depend on. I let people in and I'm surprised when they hurt me. Every time. I don't know why. You'd think I'd have learned my lesson by now but over and over I let it happen. The people I deserve, I push away so it seems. I end things before I can make them terrible. I feel like I ruin things. I feel like my ended friendships are my fault in every situation. I blame myself for things that aren't my fault. I pity myself a lot. I'm too scared to try to change it. I want to make it stop.

Justin

I'm recovering from something that doesn't have anything to do with you, and that's not your fault. Recently, I let a guy into my life farther than any guy before, and it ended up being a nonexistent thing that still leaves a sour taste in my mouth. It's hard for me to move on when there are places that remind me of him. Clothing that reminds me of him. Parts of myself that remind me of him. I can't go into anything with anybody in this condition. It wouldn't be fair to you or myself. I still have lingering feelings for this person as well, which only makes things worse.