Confession

I hold on to people who treat me like shit, and I don't know why. I grow attached to people quick as lightning. I'm clingy to the wrong people, or people that I shouldn't depend on. I let people in and I'm surprised when they hurt me. Every time. I don't know why. You'd think I'd have learned my lesson by now but over and over I let it happen. The people I deserve, I push away so it seems. I end things before I can make them terrible. I feel like I ruin things. I feel like my ended friendships are my fault in every situation. I blame myself for things that aren't my fault. I pity myself a lot. I'm too scared to try to change it. I want to make it stop.