Fuck

I'm so sorry I can't be the girl you want me to be

I'm sorry that you see me as a waterfall of gold,

And I see myself as a fake half penny

I feel worthless and definitely not worth while,

And you feel I'm worth the universe and then some.

You're wonderful and miraculous and 

I can't love you the way you want me to

because you deserve every drop of love around, 

so much more than me 

and the fact you'd settle for this 

rips me apart, 

But you still call

And you don't let me fall,

And I fucking swear I've never paid anyone back

But I will try to love you enough,

And I wont fight the drowning sensation I get when I gaze in your eyes,

Because I'm not as beautiful as the galaxy,

But you say my name like it's a hymn,

And you make me feel like I'm not a waste of space dust floating in the cosmos,

And when I'm with you I feel more alive than I ever did smoking with losers who didn't know my name.

I'll die before I tell you I don't love you,

And I live to see your 5am smiles

Bedhead hair, half closed eyes, 

slow breaths...