Weight

Honestly, lately I haven't been feeling like myself. I've been feeling a little down because I feel like I'm gaining weight. I really hate it, haha. Also, I don't have a scale so I can't weigh myself and I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't know how much I weigh. I feel like I could be anywhere from 110 lbs to 113, which freaks me out because over the summer I was around 107 lbs most of the time. I really like being able to weigh myself after I eat so I know what I can and can't eat for the day. Like if I weigh a lot in the morning, I know I should eat lighter that day, and if I weigh less I know I can have something nice, you know? Now I never know. And I can't trust my judgement, I mean, I feel like I look disgusting. My stomach is awful. It's poking out more than ever and I hate it. I don't know what to do. My confidence is literally being sucked out of me day by day. If I didn't hate the taste of vomit so much I'd probably be bulimic by now.