Wisdom Tooth

I got one of my wisdom teeth taken out two days ago. It was terrifying. I cried the whole time, ugh. So embarrassing ><"

I kept thinking of my counselor telling me to calm down the whole time, and that helped. I remember in one of our sessions we talked about my fear of dentists and doctors. The fear hasn't really gone away but I understand it more now. I think it's because I was around them so much as a kid. There was always something wrong with me so it seems.

Anyway so I had my first real meal (a meal that wasn't jello or yogurt) today and ugh I missed real food so much. It was a chilli dog and fries. Yummy ^_^ My gums hurt a little from it but it was worth it.

Also I feel really happy about having a step dad. I feel more normal. I don't have to tell everyone about my weirdo dad because now I can just mention my awesome step dad!

I'm nervous about paying for the rest of college. My mom wants me to find a scholarship but I don't really think they work. I feel like it's all fake. Idk. I feel like scholarships are a lot like the lottery. One in a million, and with my luck, never. However I guess I'll try. Mostly because I fucking hate it when she brings up me not ever applying for them.

So yeah that's everything that's been happening lately. d: