Josh

Brianna got to have so much time with you, don't you understand? She got to hold you at night and kiss you and be the first and last thought on your mind and she never even fucking deserved it. She fucked up, she cheated, she made you vulnerable and terrified. She made you doubt your own fucking instincts, your worth. I can't help but fucking hate her. She turned you into somebody I didn't even fucking know, and whenever you were sad, guess who helped? Sarah. Sarah helped, and then there was me who could never fucking seem to get through to you. Not to mention I waited just like Sarah did. I waited so fucking long, and I still didn't get to have you in the end. That part isn't Brianna's fault, but I'm still fucking mad at her for it because I never even got the fucking chance, dude. I feel like I let you down. I feel like I wasn't enough because I wasn't the one you chose when that bitch fucked you over. She fucking ruined everything, she even tried to ruin you, and I fucking love you. I love you. I never wanted to see you that hurt. I never wanted you to be that miserable, but what could I do? I loved you, but you loved her. It's been so painful, all of it. Watching her hurt you, watching you fall out of love with her and in love with Sarah. I watched it all unravel before my eyes and there was nothing I could do because I never even stood a chance. Why did I ever think I did? Fucking kill me.