Problem

I know if I did I'd die, but I wonder what it feels like to be drifting in and out of consciousness? Blinking my eyes and hours go by. People come in to say hi and when I blink and open my eyes again they've already passed by. Or what it feels like to be in a coma, and waking up to cards and teddy bears and get well cards. Unless it were me. I often wonder who would visit me if I were in a coma. If i got hit by a bus and slept for a solid month. Who would stay by my bedside and cry in their sleep for me. I don't know. Family sure. Not a specific boy i have in mind. I crave the feeling of being missed and wanted around. I want to bring happiness to everyone that sees me Nd I don't want to trouble anybody anymore. If I could become a walking utopia I would in a heart beat. Plus a flat stomach and a taller frame. And a billion dollars. Thats my problem.