SIUC

I need to stop relying on people to be with me all the time. I'd be fine on my own. I can't expect anybody, whether it's Violet or Nova or Indie, to come with me to Maryland or stay in a dorm with me at college or anything like that. I just can't do this to myself anymore. Nobody's going to guarantee anything to me, whether it's college or jobs or houses in the future. I need to accept the possibility that I could be alone. There's nothing wrong with it. But the more I rely on people the worse this is going to get. Olivia and I went to SIUC yesterday and I registered. It sucked, honestly. It wasn't fun, it was stressful, and boring, and uneventful. Not to mention apparently they don't have fashion design as a minor although I swear my mom and I saw it on the website. So now I have to find a new minor. Great. I feel like a dumbass.