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The more I think about it, the more I think I should probably go back to writing diary entries versus  using blogger. I mean what if one day Blogger is discontinued or something? I have poems on here that aren't even written down. I'd hate to lose them... I don't know. Something to think about.

I just got back from the play at school. Actually, it was a compilation of four, Carmen, Fear, Worst Day, and something else ermm... I forgot the name of the last one. They were all really great, but I think 'Fear' was my favorite. As usual, I didn't vote. I'm interested in other's opinions.

Indie and I talked about a mutual fear of 'being the second choice'. I'm glad I'm not the only one that has that weird fear, haha. I mean, for me it's more of an all around anxiety thing. I took a 6 hour test last week to see if I had any disorders like Anxiety, depression, ADD, etc. I think I probably have all of the above...

A couple days ago in third hour, we were talking about Xanax and stuff, and I got sorta scared because I didn't know Xanax was addictive and I don't want to become addicted to any pills, that's the last thing I need going into college. Maybe there's an alternative? Plus, I don't want to take a pill if it's going to alter how I am. Sometimes people take antidepressants and become entirely different people. I guess I still want to be me, ironically, because most times all I want is to be somebody else...