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I hate being jealous. And it's like whenever I try to retreat from that feeling I just end up thinking about Mason, but then it's like that's not okay either bc he's  literally my future fucking step brother. What the fuck is wrong with me. I feel so fucked up. I feel like I should bring it up to Michael so I can hear his opinion. I mean I'm kinda paying him to listen to me bitch for forty five minutes so I might as well use it haha.... *sigh*