Decisions

I've decided that college is definitely more about growing up than it is about the work. The homework isn't the hard part. Dealing with people is the hard part. Learning about how you deal with situations alone is the hard part. I've learned more about human nature at college than I have about my major, and that's saying something. I'm glad I'm learning more about people, but it hurts sometimes. It hurts I'm learning it now, and sometimes it hurts to learn it at all. I want to be someone's number 1. Someone besides my mom and dad, you know? I want to be a guy or girl's number 1, and I want to be held and kissed and loved. I think I'm finally admitting what I've known for a while: I actually don't like being alone sometimes. I pretend to love being alone all the time when in reality, every once in a while I like being alone, but I need love just like everyone else does. I really want to be held. I want to feel it.