Nick

I think you're really cool, and I honestly like you a lot.
Please understand that if I don't date you right away, it's not for any other reason than
I'm scared of getting hurt.
I'm so scared that I'll get into a relationship with you and ruin everything
I don't know.
It's what I'm good at.
Overthinking until I scare them away.
Being paranoid to the point it's annoying
And you'd constantly have to deal with my depression and anxiety
there will be days I feel like scum and I'll need you to be there and tell me I'll be okay,
and there will be good days, and they'll be really good,
And then you'll end up thinking,
"Why can't she be like all the time?"
And when you leave I'll forgive you,
because that's just what I do.
I forgive even the people
that drag me through the dirt
and I hate it.....

I'm scared to be with you because of what I might do.
I just don't want you to get tired of me like a lot of other people have.